Over the past few weeks, despite my various commitments and responsibilities, I have found myself almost aching for uninterrupted time at home doing nothing. Not a fancy vacation, not binge-watching Netflix with mint chocolate chip ice cream, not even catching up with friends and family over the phone or in person. I’ve just wanted to sink into the daily act of living, without any excited or nervous anticipation of events, without feeling pressed for time or in a rush. My mind and body have felt deeply tired and I’ve craved the repetition of days spent doing all the small regular tasks needed to maintain a healthy and ordered life.
在过去的几个星期里，尽管要面对各种各样的必做事务和职责，我仍然发现自己近乎是在祈盼一段不受打扰的时光，在家无所事事地度过。不是奢华的假期，不是边吃薄荷巧克力边刷网飞，甚至不是与朋友和家人煲电话粥或者面对面地聊天，我只是想扎进日常的生活里，不用因为任何活动事项的预期而感到兴奋或紧张，也不再因为时间或者紧迫感而紧绷。我的身心已经极度疲劳，渴望能日复一日地去做那些维持健康有序生活所需的常规小事。